Boring reality

Wishes

2011-12-11T18:32:00.001+08:00

Have you ever looked up at the stars in the sky and made a wish?
I do. Right now, I really want something magical to happen.
4 months to get over you, yet I can't. You're still the one staying inside, hesitant to move out.
It's painful, but I've got no choice. Nowhere else to run, nowhere to hide.
I hope, I can tell you this. R, I still love you. (:

POP

2011-12-10T07:39:00.001+08:00

FIELD CAMP END LO.

WHATS NEXT?

POP.

2011-10-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

I love my new life. Sure, it isn't as interesting as before but I am enjoying this quite happily even though I lost something precious along the way, but hey. It isn't the end of the world. Ohyea, I'm getting my sidekick next week :D Be jealous people! HEHEHEZXC. I'm gonna get nagged by mom but ohwell, I keep spending recently. Gotta cut down! Hmm, I love my bunk mates. They're awesome. I wanna find my own guardian angel, oh wait. Is that the right term? Hopefully there'll be someone who can be my side accompanying me soon. Adios.

2011-10-01T11:59:00.002+08:00

Now that I can actually not feel upset about you, it's still hard trying to talk to you. Feels awkward and stuff. Life sucks, don't have enough time to do anything outside. Come on, bear with it. Life'll only gonna get better. Hmm, I'm only blogging for the sake of blogging since I'm bored.

ioidhtgniwhly. It's so frustrating, it's always you who is filling my mind. Fug. -_-

2011-09-18T06:49:00.000+08:00

I wonder, if you even still come here. I won't tell you I updated. So let's see if you know it soon.

I'm sorry for wanting to run away, but I'm always feeling upset. Forgive me please.
Last long with A, and enjoy everything he gives you. Not taking him for granted, you'll have a happy life. (:

2011-08-27T00:00:00.045+08:00

I know the cake is kinda not nice. :\
but my art is f9 standard de okeh >:

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Rachel,
Happy birthday to you.

Imagine me singing this to you LOL!
It's gonna be funny :3

Hi darling! It's your birthday today! Happy? You're gonna go out w your cousin's to a bbq thingy right? Have fun! Hope you enjoy there, if not it's a boring 18th birthday. No good! Currently I'm in NS, maybe relaxing, maybe struggling. Heh. No presents from me this year, sorry. :\ But next year I will try and get you one! Now old old le, no more xiaomeimei le hor! Cannot always throw tantrums to others, haha! Not everyone can bear with you you know. :3 Need to find more friends! But don't let people bully you. Okay? Don't need to feel guilty over small things just because they say they are upset. Hao muh? Time to change yourself bit by bit! Don't worry, I'm here to listen to your rantings!

I'm running out of time and ideas to write in here. The others will be by text later okay? :3

Hopes that your wishes will come true! Iloveyou.

2011-08-15T03:53:00.000+08:00

喜欢看你傻傻的表情, 好像全世界都很平静 ;

Ahh, I originally wanted to do a blogpost in chinese, but it was so fail.
-types- -deletes- x1532532153662 LOL.

1 more week, time really flies.
It's gonna be a new beginning of a new chapter in life.
Going into ns, away from you.
Living around your tantrums and nonsense seems like a daily routine.

Sometimes I feel like an irritating idiot always bugging you.
To talk to you, to accompany you, etc. But you didnt mind.
How did you manage to survive through all these while?

You always said, you're selfish, you don't know how to cherish the people nice to you. But hey, I'm here. I don't mind if you do not cherish me, just know that you're not alone. I feel like I'm overreacting here, but then knowing you, you don't have friends whom you can always talk to.

Things have been repeated time and time again, I don't wish to sound like a naggy uncle, or I may already have. Sorry.

多么希望幸福在你身边

2011-08-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

You know I still have feelings for you.
What are you trying to do? Make me jealous, upset?
I dont really know. Hah.

2011-08-09T16:12:00.000+08:00

Sigh, I miss the past. I miss everything.
When you were there 24/7, giving me all your attention.
It was nice. Those were really happy moments.
Idk about you though, heh.
You'll never be alone, rachel. Fighting! ^^v
I really wish things can go back to the past, but it probably wont.
So I gotta get up on my feet by myself, and continue being the fool.
Hehe, you're nice enough to deserve friends, silly.
I'll be one for you! (:

2011-08-09T03:02:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah, I thought i'd be the happiest person alive when I meet you tomorrow. guess it wont be happening. heh.

2011-08-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

Heh, after all these while. its been what. 6 months? A really fun 6 months.
Thanks dumbo, smallgirl, baby, meimei.
My lover, my best friend, my sister.

It's soo fast. I really cherish all this. But guess what, you wont let me continue.
Cold texts from you, and if i dont find you, you wont find me.
It's been so messy recently. In a week. i had to call you baby > mei mei > nothing.
So sad. I'm crying as I type this. but you'll probably not read this any time soon.

Honestly, I just can't stay away from you. I feel so much like a nuisance recently, heh.
I wonder what's going on your mind about this eh? You dont blog about me already. I really dont know. And you'll say you dont know what to write/say about me even if I ask. Mm, alot of things happened recently hey.

But I hope you know, I sincerely love you, and want to treat you like a younger sister. Even though I failed, and I think I might have crossed the line today/yesterday or something because I was jealous. But I pretty much don't care. LOL.

Everytime, you make me upset. You'll say something about not wanting to upset me anymore. But you never did. You continued to just ignore whatever I feel, whatever I think, whatever I say. You only thought about what you wanted. Getting together, break up, staying as more than friends, stopping everything, being my sister. Everything. And then you just kept making me upset over and over and over again.

I know you will never cherish me, or anything. But this is too much for me to handle. I wanted to be your good friend, your good brother. And that I can be the one listening to your problems everytime. Being someone you will find important, and have someone you can call a close friend. Thats all I wanted?

Right now, because someone interesting is giving you his attention, you're neglecting me. Like seriously. Yeayea, i've been going on and on about this. But why? Because you wont do shit about it. Am I not worth your time, than that new friend? Who was that who accompanied you everytime when you were bored, when you were upset, when you were troubled. You just casted him aside. Disappointing maximum.

Its like why? Everytime I have to face your stubbornness your ego alone. And you asked me to scold you about it too. But what use does it have? You'll just deny it and act like everything's normal. I wont know what to do. You never give in, even when you're wrong. So what am I? A toy just to accompany you? A listener who needs no respect? A friend who you can discard?

Lol. Im bored of this already. And I think its long enough. To make you think at least something.

But Im guessing your response will be, something short.

2011-08-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

Im tired of being upset. You know how it feels. Like how marcus treats you. You're treating me like that too. What to do? I'm on the verge of crying. But do you care? Lols.
I guess not.

Maybe im just not suitable staying around here. Tata.
I'm running away from you, someday.
It's not a threat. It's so tiring.
I'm giving up.

Don't get bullied, don't get cheated.
Stay happy, and smile.

I'm jealous everyone else gets your attention. But I can't.
I need to face all your ego too. why?

this blogpost is in bits and pieces, i dont care.
If you read it. think, if not. ignore.

2011-08-08T16:20:00.002+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
So pissed.
And I think you know why.
Im ignoring you.

2011-08-07T02:12:00.000+08:00

You really wanna know what I felt? LOL.
This is the first reaction when i saw your blogpost.

"Ohmygod, she's being stubborn again."

Why must this repeat again and again and again?

You said you'll be moving on, then what am i reading?

It's no use crying over spilt milk, once its gone, it'll never come back.
No matter what you do.

This is the last time i'm gonna say anything about this.
No more next time.

If you can't get up by yourself, noone can help you.

Ahh, it's depressing. Enough about this.
I know you'll come back from this eventually. (:

Now about me.
I feel like an old man recently. All the bodyaches, bla bla bla.

It's so annoying.

I suddenly am upset, idk what else to write. edit it next time. if I remember.

2011-08-07T01:38:00.000+08:00

Recently, so much headache.
This stupid pig had been upset for 451541616541 days, cried for 45351351416461 times. so worrying please.
Well, hopefully she'll move on soon!

Im so bored, and I'm forced to write a blogpost.
But idk what to write. Sigh.

I'll write a nicer blogpost next time.

2011-07-27T01:54:00.000+08:00

While I promise to be your guardian angel, I wanna see you change away your bad habits.

Not for me, but for you and your future hubby. x)

2011-07-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

It ended as quick as lightning. I'm upset, very.
All along, it's about what you wanted, how you felt.
Disappointing. Till now, I don't know what you feel.
Keep avoiding, and avoiding.
All you can say is sorry.
I don't feel like a boyfriend now you know?
More like a puppet.
When you normally think of something, why won't you tell me, share with me.
Am I not someone worthy of knowing your thoughts?
Sad.
I still wanna say this. It's no use comparing, why not try. Rather than avoid, and regret.
But you'll probably not change your mind.

I still love you
I'm not mad, i'm just ranting my thoughts out.
Dont get offended, cause i don't mean to.

i really hope you can blog your feelings out,
I wanna know more. More than just uncomfortable, more than just sorry.
Don't say you dont know what so say, just write everything out on your mind.
Please.?

2011-07-19T22:03:00.019+08:00

Daily blog #4 ; And today sucks.

Im super grumpy, i don't know why. My head hurts. And audi/ internet is being a total bitch. I find myself being a nuisance to babygirl everytime im moody, but i cant control it, i don't know how. Today, I just messed up in the morning, in the evening/night. afternoon was peaceful cause babygirl fell asleep on me. Kewt max. :3

I cant think properly right now. And im like o-o where's my specs when im wearing it. wth -_-

I'm trying to be cheerful now. i don't want to make bbygirl unhappy heading to bed. :\

Tomorrow is movie date w bbygirl. And i'm looking forward to it. :3

Hopefully no awkwardness tomorrow D:

And she says she wanna make me shy!

But I got no idea how, and i'm honestly worried, don't know what will she do >:

Mm, gotta think of things to do, incase of the barrage of 'idk's coming out of her mouth tmr. Hmph. Ediat girl. >:

But singapore is just sooo boring, and and she says that sg's interesting, but she's totally refusing to give suggestions to not-so-boring to do! Angwy.

May tomorrow be a happy day! Hehe.

I hope I can spend more time with her, I really do.

Not much time left, and who knows what will happen in the future.

I know, although I am making her unhappy quite often recently, I really treasure the moments we spend together. And hopefully will be a pretty 1 month before I go ns! Then I'll let fate decide if we'll stay together after that, but I have faith in baby!

Let's last long okay, I may not be there to accompany you after that, but I really wish we can last super long!

Or maybe, just maybe, if we ever break up. I can be the elder brother who takes care of you like you always wanted o: < but that's close to impossible. Heh.

2011-07-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hehehe it's Daily blog #3 time!
Today baby had so little rest. :\ ++ she woke up at 6am! omg.
She's tired but unable to rest, sigh.

Freesia LP! me and baby managed to earn like mmmm, 1.5k hearts in 2 days? Cool right! I'm glad baby is happy! hehehe. Will tag ring more often bah. when that pig is sleeping! x:

Right now, babygirl is eating her dinner. SO LATE HOR!? always like that one ):

Idk what to do later when she goes to sleep soon already ):

Mmm, maybe i'll go sleep later too! But no promises! :p

I don't want to end it so short, so now i'm paused here. thinking for something to write about.
Hehe. Suddenly thought about the topic baby was telling me just now, Being unfaithful.

I'm confident in not going down that path you know.
What about you?

And she says I won't trust her and stalk her fb account if she ever gives me it!
Ediat girl >:

I feel secure , I feel loved. And I usually disturb her about being jealous! and she's damn kewt about it. x:
Iloveyou! <3

2011-07-18T01:19:00.000+08:00

Daily post #2, yay!

Today was my turn to be tired. So tired. I kept falling asleep on baby. Sorry! And she was angry ): And I was kind of annoying to my girlf today >: Sorry.. :\
On the bright side, we cbped alot today! like 700 hearts. as claimed by babygirl. in like. 1 1/2 hrs? O: Cool! Then shortly after she had to go out for dinner. So bored. I realised that I haven't accompany babygirl alot today, keep falling asleep. So now i'm waiting for her to wake up, so that I can accompany her okay! <3 hehehe. I love you.

I know today's post is quite short cause I don't have anything in mind to post and girlf's not here to give me inspiration. She's sleeping soundly now, I hope. I miss you.(:

2011-07-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

Haiiiii! I'm blogging again. like 2 times this week. o:
So rare uh!

At first I didn't know what to blog about. But my silly girl told me something which gave me an idea! Hahaha.

Recently girlf has been tired so easily. I wonder what happened. So worrying ): She used to be able to stay awake for super long hours till i hate the fact that she doesn't wanna go to bed. But now she's almost 24/7 on her bed. Hopefully nothings wrong :\ And and recently she's copying me! She's starting to use the ' which girl girl you peiing? ' thing on me le. No creativity one! Hmph. But it's super kewt.
Jealousy, it's so dangerous. Yet it can be a really sweet thing too. Right? x:

Today was so bored. I woke up at 5~ to pei my girlf. So good right! :B

But my phone had to die on me -_- angry max.
Then baby was aslp for half of the day. I really dk what to do without her ><

I kept looking at my phone hoping that she woke up and texted me already :\

I'm running out of things on my mind already. I kept pausing to text my silly girlf till my mind is in a blank now! byebye :3

2011-07-14T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hai peepo! Ok nevermind. Only my silly babygirl will read this blog :3
Soo, I'm blogging cause she asked me to! x:

Hmm. Blog about what nehs? Recently nothing much happened.
My life ish boring, but she's always there to make it enjoyable! Love herrr.
She's always making me smile, through as many different different ways you can think of. Mischievous maximum. But it's super cute. She's always there accompanying me, even when she's super tired, and sometimes, stubbornly staying awake too.
Sometimes it makes me think, have I treated her as well as she does? I don't wanna lose someone who treats me that well due to my own negligence. The tantrums i've thrown recently were really bad.. But I cherish her okay! Like really alot.

My lover, My best friend, My happypill.
Rachel L. ♥

2011-07-12T03:48:00.000+08:00

So many things to rant, but I don't know who to rant at anymore. So I'm here.
There's no doubt that you'll be reading this now. But I still will say what's on my mind.
Idk what to do, you feel so distant recently. Like in a long long away away from me. Every time I try to talk to you, tell you something, or ask questions. the only replies you give are o-o, o: and okay. It's super depressing. When I'm upset. you'll just be like. Okay, is there even concern in there? What else can you say.
I thought about the past just now. How we used to chat about the random-est things, but right now. its so different. its always about Aura aura aura. And it sucks.
It's so hard to read your mind. You never tell me the reasons you were unhappy, know how helpless i feel? I'm the reason, yet i cannot know what i did wrong.

Blah. idwnna continue already. x.x

2011-07-11T04:34:00.000+08:00

I feel so bad :\
I cannot pei you cause im feeling really uncomfortable right now. x.x
When I said I will accompany you alr. ):
Sorry lovee.

2011-07-08T17:34:00.001+08:00

Rachel's ♥

080711

2011-06-29T01:43:00.001+08:00

Ok, so I'm being 'forced' to blog.
That's why I'm here.
Noticed that I havent blogged for more than a week, I will try and make this a longgggggg post.

Why chu wanna know what I'm doing?
I'm doing this now :3
Ok random.

Recently have been mapling with a pig, like for everyday.
More like her accompanying me.
Sometimes I feel super bad and want to ask her to audi, she refuses.
What to do?

Not that I like audi, but i kind of miss it.

Hey sillygirl,
I find myself feeling obsessed with you too.
It's like, I can't stop thinking about whatever you're doing.
Likelike, TALKING TO FLINGS.
Who's the one complaining when she's the one starting it most of the time? >:(

People tend to have things they don't want to lose, or happy moments to end.
For me, it's you and the moments we share.
Although I know, you're not mine, and someday you're gonna leave all this,
I really hope.. that this will never end.
♥ Kewtsy R will always be loved by meee. :p

n

2011-06-18T05:59:00.000+08:00

I miss you. My phone is down, you're sleeping.

I miss texting you, miss disturbing you.

I wonder when can my phone be okay.
>: You're going out later.

Sadd, how I wish we can be closer in rl,
but i amz tew shy =="

2011-06-16T23:16:00.003+08:00

I don't know if you still come here, but I feel that I'm being left alone alot recently.
You might disagree, maybe it's just myself.
I guess it's something I have to overcome myself,
This thing called obsession.

2011-06-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

So today, i spent a day without you.
No random bickering, no laughters, no jokes.

It's different, from the daily routine i'm used to.
I'm not used to it.

But maybe it's good in a way, that I can also learn how to play cold wars with you >:(

You wont win next time! :D

Omg it's a stupid post...

Who cares anyway.

2011-06-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

Everytime you get upset, I wont know what's on your mind.
So frustrating.

2011-06-10T14:04:00.001+08:00

I feel so restless without you by my side D:

Idk what will happen when you go malaysia on sunday laaa x.x

Why must your mom cheat you to go with her!

Tmd. =3=

Right now i'm sooooooo bored, cause you're currently in lalaland.

Thats why i'm blogging! So that you can read it when chu wake up. :3

But I don't know what else to blog about!

andd, R's an ediat. ♥

She's super kewt laa, though she's super evil tewz o:

Notes to self : Shall not give in so much to her anymore.

Birthday is here already.

Next friday, but i don't even know what to do.

Butbut, I know I want a present from you. :D

2011-06-08T12:56:00.001+08:00

You stupid stalker! Sometimes I think we're super similar laa. The way we think, things we do. Everything. It's so kewlzxc.

I really don't know what to do. Do I have a choice?
I know I have you by my side for now, but things will change.
Till then, how can i describe this bond that we share?

Ohnoo, I hate it when I'm awake yet you're asleep.
It's like so so so so boring D:
Can you like faster wake up?
I stopped spamming your wall cause i keep thinking about chiu.
I know you're just asleep, but I miss you quite alot o-o

My phone keeps vibrating because of tweetdeck.
And I kept hoping one of them would be because of your text.
I hate this feeling.
I want you nao D:

2011-06-07T16:40:00.001+08:00

I think a day can be awesome just by chatting with you.

I don't wanna lose you, never.

2011-06-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

I think I finally understood what you meant yesterday.
But you're really important to me.

2011-06-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

Why must it feel so awkward.

Why must it be so strange.

Why why why why why.

If we're gonna be so awkward around each other,

I rather not have the ring.

All I want is a soulmate,

Whom I can communicate to in both offline and online.

2011-06-05T11:07:00.000+08:00

Am I caring too much?
What did I do wrong?
Why must you do this to me?
Why are you reluctant to tell me anything everytime?

It's so tiring.

2011-06-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

I will dote on you for as long as I can
If you'll let me.

2011-06-04T01:08:00.001+08:00

I'm getting bullied by an evil pig everyday.

Someone help me? >:

But she's just so adorable,

I can't retaliate. ♥

2011-06-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

I want to hold that pair of hands,

But I'm afraid it hurts when I need to let go.

2011-06-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

I don't blog often. I don't want to share too much either.

But someone wants me to blog.>:(

Recently there's this really adorable girl accompanying me day in day out,

always making me smile. Thankyous (:

You should stop giving in to me!
Everytime you'll just try your best to entertain me,

doing what I want and not much of what you wish to do.

The first person I'll miss after enering NS,
Will be you.

R's.

2011-05-27T13:30:00.002+08:00

How? I think I miss you quite easily.

2011-05-23T06:02:00.002+08:00

我只要你留在我身边.

2011-05-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

I don't understand.
Why was I so moody.
Shitty ass day.

Still, caught Fast 5 with Byron And Jl.
Awesome movie I must say.
But my mind was always thinking about something else.

Awesome!

2011-05-22T00:59:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Dumbo, Rachel Lrq for the awesome dp << :D

Hehehhe

Serenity

2011-05-20T12:37:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! Dead blog.
Life's pretty awesome recently ^^v

Foolishness

2011-02-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

If you still love her,
why can't you drop all that pretense
just to get her back?

sometimes i just hate myself

Audition sucks.

2010-10-21T16:17:00.001+08:00

nuff said.

♥You♥

2010-10-15T17:06:00.003+08:00

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Fear

2010-10-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

I have a million things to say, yet i can't

For i'm willing to choose you, than anything else.

Horoscope

2010-10-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

Had a really lengthy chat about

how zodiac signs can describe a person so easily

with karrot and baby earlier in the afternoon.

Gemini, described as the twins, are capable of having multiple personalities in a body. It's tiring, isn't it? At least to me, it's a chore. Where's that me whom I can call truly me? Though to say, I myself am unique, undescribable by the zodiac facts. I mean, everyone is indeed unique. Yet the zodiac can correctly pinpoint someone's character ever so accurately. But of a gemini? Heh, it's hard to say. For myself, I'm stumped with what I read, I don't agree to half the things they say. I can be pretty self contradicting too. Freedom loving yet wants to be restricted, easygoing yet stubborn, playful yet serious among some examples.

Before getting too excited about how

great/positive the readings of a relationship based on 2 zodiacs,

Communication between partners and 2 willing hearts

still are the most effective to having a

healthy relationship.

Silent cries

2010-10-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

I feel like crying everytime I think of you.

Is that a sign of being weak?

Journey beyond the horizons

2010-10-03T17:44:00.000+08:00

Time flies.

Just days ago, we had our first monthsary.

And that month seemed so long.

It's great isn't it?

The memories filled with you,

It's so special.

From

' Will you be my monster couple? '

' Will you be mine? '

Everything happened so unexpectedly,

Elements of surprise ever present.

Although we both had unhappiness

hidden deep down in our hearts in the beginning
left untold,
The path to our current position otherwise
seemed smooth.

I'm glad, that you chose me
It's a promise, that i'll cherish you
Cause I want you in the second half of my life
Writing pretty stories about You and I

Gift from god

2010-09-04T00:31:00.003+08:00

Many many things on my head.

Many many things to say.

But nothings coming out

For I'm unable to pick the right words.

You've asked me many questions before,

Yet I could answer none.

I'm never someone good at words,

Never able to express myself properly.

So I really am sorry for those undesired reactions.

You know, you're really nice.

But then again, I don't think I can hold you close just yet.

I don't dare to.

For the past few days, instead of being stressed up over my exams

I had dreams of you just turning your back and leave.

I really wonder why.

Thoughts of him can actually flood my brain

That got me afraid.

Thinking back,

Meeting you was really luck.

Once chance, one round.

5 perfects, 5 syncs.

Maybe, maybe

I'm beginning to like you.

I know this blogpost is quite messy,

I suddenly do not know what to say.

You're someone really special.

Friends

2010-08-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hey yo!

This post is for those

Who stood by me.

When I was facing

A new low in my life.

You chose to help me up,

Instead of watching me suffer

In agony.

The cheers you gave,

Smiles you shared,

The warm embrace

Was genuinely appreciated.

Even though I chose

To neglect you for her,

The mistakes I made,

Was never once complained.

Yet you still welcomed me back,

With open arms.

Closer than ever,

I met a side of some

I never knew before.

This small group of people,

Each beautiful and unique.

The strong supported,

The patient listened,

The wise advised.

For me to make a comeback,

Stronger and wiser than ever,

These little actions of kindness,

The help you gave,

Will never go unnoticed.

For this is a promise

That I'll never

Leave someone alone,

When they are

Down and out.

Cause this experience shows,

The importance of friends.

Although weare destined to live alone,

The people we meet around us,

Are able to impact us tremendously.

Growing Up

2010-08-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

We'll never be disgraced

For experience teaches us all,

Mistakes after mistakes,

Its a neverending list.

While growing up

We started being

Innocent and carefree,

While ending up

Devious and troubled.

Chances after chances

Were given.

Not to correct, but to teach.

For one to understand their misdeeds.

While growing up,

People around us

Affect us the most.

The influence,

They have on us

Its significant,

Unable to describe.

Our families,

Since our first cry.

Teachers since,

We started going pre-school.

Friends we made,

When we could talk.

When we finally knew

The meaning of love,

The hurt caused by it,

Will never be explained.

Matters of the heart,

Will forever be a mystery.

The mistakes we made,

Lies we said.

Often met with gracious arms,

For no human is perfect.

People change,

To be stronger and better

In different, often unexpected ways.

That we know,

It's just a part of growing up.

Where things happen,

To broaden our knowledge,

To toughen our character.

Superwoman

2010-08-01T15:58:00.024+08:00

Who do you think your.

Superwoman? Oh no think again.

So what you have that facade over you?

It does no shit, not gonna protect you

From the little lies from the people around.

So why do these? All these pretending

It's never gonna bring you far.

You said, you're gonna choose your friends

wisely, are you doing that?

No, at least not in my opinion,

but my opinions didnt matter.

That you're feeling happy,

That the guy was best for you.

I'm honestly sore, but what can i do?

You're always running from me.

For everything that you've done,

Although it may seem as a doubt to others.

I heartily appreciate those little actions

That you did for me in the past.

That although things happened

To me right now,

I'm not feeling any hatred,

For things are meant to happen this way.

Things that happened are predestined

Noway humans can change their fates.

The choices they make the paths they chose,

Will never be alterable.

Not regretting this path i chose,

Which brought myself pretty much pain.

Though i was never appreciated not a single bit,

I enjoyed the trip watching you smile.

That the times we spent

the moments we shared

Will never be replaced,

For you are the first

Who touched by heart so deeply.

We may not be contacting

Each other in future,

Noone knows.

But right now, promise me

That you'll not fall,

Because of your choice

And sometimes, your stubbornness.

So right now, just live on.

Happily.

Friends, i promise.

This is the last time i'll mention about her.

Till the day i see her fall again,

I wont watch her suffer alone.

It's just something within me,

That she's someone irreplaceable.

Facing Reality

2010-08-01T00:06:00.005+08:00

Really, what's love?

For everything that you've done,

all you get back is hurt.

The naiveness to believe

the reluctance to leave.

Thanks Lyn for calling me that,

A hypocrite who thought it was alright to lie to his friends.

Just cause he didnt want them to worry,

When that wasnt true.

Life's just like a lost controlled semi-automatic,

No pauses, no replays, no second chances.

We have to live on, for mistakes made,

Just like lost lives on the battlefield,

Impossible to amend.

Thanks Kang jing for always being there,

although we only just known each other not long ago.

The never dying enthusiasm which tries to cheer me up at every attempt,

Thanks alot ya?

For the lies people make,

There's always a reason.

But for them to open up,

Its disappointingly impossible.

Hey Marshely,

You've been here for how long, 1 year half?

Thanks for those words of encouragement,

And that you've never left me on my own.

The harsh reality people fear,

I never thought it'd be my turn.

Rather to be enclosed in a dream,

That's how a loser is supposed to feel.

No more, for im gonna get back up my feet.

Though its not gonna be soon.

But friends, dont worry.

I'll be back.

This very special friend.

She's always there.

Not to be named,

But will always be appreciated.

Right now, life's a struggle.

That i've to face this all alone,

While she's living happily away from me.

Never did i expect, a lie from her,

That she could so harshly push me to the ground.

Right now, I'm afraid.

That although things might seem to be okay,

Will never recover from this shock any time any day.

Life's unexpected, noone know's

What lies ahead of us in the future.

That we all have to live with precaution

For fear that we'll get hurt somehow.

But even then, whats the use.

Of that precaution, when noone's safe.

That even someone dear can do this to you.

That trust, its hard to earn.

Yet so easily lost.

What's the use?

Of an untold truth,

That you were already gone.

It isnt gonna keep me from getting hurt.

And Sorry was all you could say.

And continued to hit me down after all these?!

I mean, fuck. I made mistakes, yea we all do.

But did i do things to deserve all these harsh treatments?

I heard, someone hasnt has a good impression on him.

I really hope, you wouldnt fall.

You might not be reading this,

But this is the last time im gonna mention you,

Till the day, you're all alone again.

I'm feeling silly to be able to do all these,

It's only throwing myself back at you

To suffer more pain.

I'm gonna move on,

Standing up stronger than ever.

Challenging the limits set out for me,

To know a side of me I myself haven't seen before.

So after a year and 6 months, it's no longer me that you want

But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once

And I woulda did anything for you

To show you how much I adored you

But it's over now, it's too late to save our love

Just promise me you'll think of me

Every time you look up in the sky and see a star

-Quoted from Space bound, Eminem-

Im actually bored of typing all these out already. LOL.

I know i have much more in my mind, but im tired. :\

Kangjing

Marshely

Marshela

Stephanie

Fionn

Vicki

Jane

Kenneth

Crystal

Yongsheng

Lyn

Elaine

Ben

Serine

I apologize if i missed out any names. ><